Missing In Action

A few months ago a beautiful and very kind friend of mine designed a built a website for me. I couldn't be more grateful and I was so excited about all of the things I was going to put on my website and all of the blogs I was going to write! My brain was buzzing and full of ideas and then all of a sudden, I just stopped. One day I just felt like I didn't have time, I've been a lot busier with makeup and if I'm honest I've been a bit overwhelmed. It's gone completely nuts in all the right ways and it's just taken me a while to adjust, but I'm there!


I could just pop out a blog about mascara's (although to be honest, even the best disappoint me anyway) but I wanted to give you an update on what I've been getting up to whilst I've been neglecting the website, if nothing else it's good therapy for me to get it all out! 


So the last few months have been a bit of a whirlwind for me, my bookings have gone through the roof and the whole thing has taken me a bit by surprise! Not that I'm complaining, it's the opposite. I'm eternally grateful and amazed! I still can't believe that this time last year I was working on a makeup counter with not one client to my name and now I'm turning people away...total madness. 

When I quit my job last July I only had 2 weddings booked in, that was all of the guaranteed money I had from then, until the end of the year...just 2 weddings. But for some reason I thought I was going to be fine, I felt like I had to make the jump! I watched a load of inspirational videos on YouTube and I thought f*** it, I'm off!!!

By some sort of miracle I've made it to now. It's not been easy, and I take my hat off to anybody that works for themselves in any industry. There really is no describing being self employed, the only thing I can say is that it's proof you love what you do, because you wouldn't put yourself through the craziness of it for anything less! 

The makeup is the easy part, it's the part I LOVE! Meeting new people and making them feel beautiful, I'll never ever get tired of that. It's an amazing feeling when you really connect with someone and I've made so many wonderful friends through doing what I do. The other part, and the one that I'm getting used to at the moment, is the paperwork and the diary (I always vowed I would never plan my life out even one day in front haha) and the messaging, the social media. It really is 24/7.....and that's where I've been struggling lately. Being so busy and trying to push on constantly is changing me as a person and the guilt I feel about it is crushing! 


I used to be the girl that drank wine straight from the bottle at least 2 nights a week, threw up every single weekend and once rang in sick to work telling them I'd been kicked in the head at a dance competition.....these days I don't even go out. I've missed Christmas nights out and New Year's Eve, hen party's and birthdays....I'm no longer the crazy girl that was happy to mess about at work all week, just waiting for the weekend to come round. Now the weekend is when I work and I spend all week making sure that that work is there for me. In a lot of ways i'm not the same Lucy that I once I was. It might be because I'm growing up, or because I'm finally doing something that I love....but either way I know that people are noticing the difference in me.

It's strange for my friends and family and it's strange for me, and I can't thank them enough for putting up with me when I'm missing in action and for always supporting me in everything I do. They are the best people you could ever wish to have in your life and I promise that at some point I will find some balance......hopefully! But for now I have makeup coming out of my ears and I'm loving every single second. Wedding season is in full flow and soon the proms will start and life will get even crazier, but I can't wait. Being so busy is such a blessing and I just know that the rest of 2017 is going to be huge! 

It's been a big period of change for me but when I sit back and look at where I've been and where I am now, I couldn't be prouder. I'm not just the class clown anymore, these days I feel like I'm a little bit more! 

The secret of change is to focus all of your energy, not on fighting the old, but on building the new.
— Socrates
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